Prologue
by Elder Ephraim of Arizona
“Deliver me from the hands of demons, for many dogs have surrounded me.”
— Canon for the Departure of the Soul
When
our brotherhood was first established, there was a frightful but also
beneficial incident with an elder of the skete; the older fathers
certainly would remember this. This elder, who was sick with a heart
condition, called me one day to go and confess him. Indeed, we had
confession, but the tempter intervened and convinced the elder to hide
certain faults. Perhaps these faults occurred when he was still living
in the world.15
When his heart condition became serious and he realized that the time
of his departure was approaching, he sent his brother to ask me to
return again for confession. His brother, who was also a monk, told me
that the elder was impatient and asked me to find out what was happening
and to try to calm him down a little before he lost his soul. I was
surprised with this because I knew that monks are somewhat patient with
temptations and illness, and they do not easily become impatient due to
some pain.
When we went
there and I saw the elder, I realized that it was not impatience, but
instead, something new was happening to him, something relevant to his
soul. I told his brother to leave us and that I would talk to the elder
alone. I sat next to him and understood that he was surrounded by demons.
“Geronda,16 are you surrounded by evil spirits?” I said to him.
“Yes, holy father.”
I saw that
he was agitated, looking to his left and right as if he was trying to
protect himself from mad dogs that had surrounded him and were attacking
him. I also saw that he was very attentive, carried away by something
the demons were telling him. Trying to help him, I changed the tone of my voice a little and said to him:
“Geronda, what are the demons telling you?”
“Oh! I can’t say what they are telling me.”
“No, no, pay very close attention because they know our sins better than we can remember them.”
He started little by little to tell me what the demons
were telling him. They were accusing him of various faults that he had
not confessed, and they were exposing them to him in his despair. I was
getting all the information through him, hoping that God would have
mercy on this man in this difficult hour of his despair. I kept telling
him to confess his sins to me as he was hearing them from the demons,
which he did. However, when I saw that he continued to be in a
miserable state, agitated, restless, and despairing, I said to him:
“Elder, I am going out for a little while, but I will come back.”
“No, my dear spiritual father, stay next to me!”
“It’s all right, I will only be gone for two or three minutes; it is not a big deal, I will be back.”
I left and went to the fathers in our brotherhood and said to them:
“Fathers,
the elder is in a difficult situation. Let us do a prayer rope for him.”
We all did a prayer rope and when I returned to the elder, I found him
in a peaceful state.
“What is going on, Geronda? Where are they?” I said to him.
“Here. The dogs are still around.”
“But are they saying anything to you?”
“They are quiet now.”
“Excellent!”
At night when I entered my cell for my personal vigil and started the prayer,17 I sensed that the demons
which were at the elder’s place earlier were now in my own cell,
causing me trouble. In all my years, this certainly was the first time
that I encountered so many demons fighting me, so close, so perceptibly. I turned on the light to read, but I could not read. The demons
were everywhere, left and right. However, I was not afraid at all
because I knew that they were there to scare me out of going back to
help the elder. I told them to do their job and I would do mine. Later I
went to the Divine Liturgy, but they did not appear there. After the
Divine Liturgy I went back to the ill and nearly dead man with another
spiritual father with whom I performed the mysteries of holy unction and
confession. I asked the elder a specific question:
“Well, were the demons the only ones that came? Where is your guardian angel?”
“He is here also.”
“But why doesn’t he take you?”
“He is waiting for an order from above.”
“Well, you see your guardian angel, but do you also see our guardian angels?”
“I see them.
And your angels are wearing a kind of crown on their head. Furthermore,
they have something special on them which indicate that they guard
spiritual fathers.”
He continued
to tell me that there would be a festival on Monday— it was Friday
then—which certain people, who were presently absent, would attend. Of
course, he meant his funeral, and these people were indeed there on
Monday.
During his last days, the demons
wanted to undermine him with something serious, because he had
confessed everything else. Because they had lost on all the other
issues, they were enraged and were trying to at least catch him in
something at the end. The day before the elder’s death I had sent Father
Joseph to keep vigil, pray on the prayer rope for him, and help him.
When I went in the morning, the elder said to me in the presence of
others who were there:
“My good confessor, let me tell you how the demons almost caught me, and how I would have completely lost my soul.”
“What is it, Geronda?”
“Last night the demons
were telling me that I would get well and everything would go away if I
would drink this whole jug of water. Of course, I understood they meant
that if I drank it I would burst and die, and I was overtaken by the
thought of doing it to end my torment. And as I was asking a father to
give me the jug of water, my brother prevented it by telling him that if
I drank it I would burst. Thus, they didn’t give it to me and I was
saved.”
In short,
after the Divine Liturgy on Sunday, I visited the elder again and found
him very peaceful, sitting in an armchair. I said to him:
“How are you, Geronda?”
“I am very well, my dear confessor. May God reward you for what you did.”
“I am going
to lie down for an hour,” I told him, “because I was in vigil last
night, and I will come again afterwards to see you.”
“Yes, go rest, Geronda.”
Finally, I
left. When I woke up after an hour, the fathers told me that the bells
had rung half an hour earlier. Ah, I said, he must have departed from
this world. And indeed, the elder had expired.
The above
case reveals a man who was not well prepared for his exit from this
world. Now I will tell you the case of a well-prepared spiritual man so
that you can see the difference in these two cases.
The
well-prepared man was my Elder, Joseph the Hesychast. When he was
sitting in prayer, at some point he used to think through the events of
his day to figure out which passion was still alive, which weakness
still disturbed him, and he would make a new decision to fight them and
obliterate them. This work took place every night during his prayers.
So, all this labor had prepared him as perfectly as is humanly possible.
I can say this because he used to tell me, “My child, the difficulty is
how to cross the bridge of death. After that, by the grace of God,
everything is taken care of.” Those were the words of a well-prepared
man.
I have never
seen such a brave man facing with so much courage that which every man
fears. This was confirmed by various states preceding his death. One of
those states was that he was weeping continuously out of great love for
Christ and our dear Panagia. He had no regrets. He was awaiting death as
a festival, as deliverance from the burdens of the world. He was
waiting for this hour in order to see God’s face, to enjoy and be filled
with its beauty. He was waiting to enter the angelic order with which
he continuously lived. This is why a little before his death he began to
worry and say, “But why am I not leaving? The revelation from God was
perfect and definite. God has made His decision; why then am I delayed?”
I told him then that we would pray for his departure. Indeed, twenty
minutes later while he was talking to the fathers, he looked up to the
heavens and saw something that only he could see and could not find
words to describe it to us. Then he bowed his head and said, “I am
leaving, I am departing. Bless; all is finished.” He closed his eyes,
received the sleep of a blessed man, and departed for the other world.
We must
struggle to attain this precious salvation. The struggle is not a game.
We did not come here simply to exist and live as it fell to our lot. The
matter is more serious than anyone can imagine. God lives and therefore
the salvation of man is something that is beyond seriousness, because
if we lose our soul the misfortune is eternal. We must not take this
matter lightly and let it escape us. The seriousness will become
apparent to us in all its extent when we approach the hour of death.
Then our mind grasps this reality and things become serious. Childish
thinking is put aside. At that time, a man sees that everything he heard
about death, everything he read, and everything he was admonished about
is coming true. Most of all, of course, he now has the sense of death,
and he realizes that he is leaving. The mind begins to contemplate and
question: “What is going to happen now? Where am I going?” The
conscience becomes an eloquent mechanism that works unceasingly: “This
happened, and that, and the other thing.” It seems to him that he is
hearing all this for the first time: “But when did all this take place
and yet never bothered me?” Of course, negligence and indolence and the
darkening of the mind had covered all like an obscuring veil. And now
the wind of the approaching death blows and things come to light. The
soul, seeing the reality of what is happening, begins to lose courage:
“Now what is going to happen? Can I go back?”
“No,” says the conscience, “now you will proceed towards the truth.”
The man sees the evil demons
approaching. They continuously and invisibly follow the various signs.
From experience they understand when the hour of death is approaching,
and they anticipate it by getting a front-row seat. They want to be
first to come and shock and mortify the soul with their terrible
appearance. They present the documents containing the soul’s sins in
order to create despair and hopelessness. The soul trembles and sighs,
and when it sees the guardian angel—or more angels—it turns its eyes in
supplication and pleads for help. But the angels help according to the
person’s deeds. Afterwards the soul turns its eyes towards relatives,
friends, and brothers; it raises its hands asking for help, but receives
no assistance from the others. And then it turns its only hope to God’s
mercy.
All these
things that we said are the reality and the truth. We have seen many
people leave this life. We have heard many accounts of the various
events which occur at the hour of death. All these correspond to what we
read in the Patristic Tradition. These things will also happen to us,
and for this reason we must keep them in mind and take the appropriate
course of action. The memory of death must restrain us continuously and
keep us above all worldly things that we see down here. Our thought must
always revolve around death, the departure, the ascent towards God’s
court of justice, and the conditions in Paradise versus Hades. Our
prayer must be as continuous as possible. We must struggle because the
prayer of the soul that struggles is heard by God. It has boldness,
especially during the hour of death, and it will face the situation
differently.
Let us think
about all these things continuously. It is the Patristic truth. It is
from life. It is from the revelation of God. And may we be inspired to
struggle accordingly in order to attain eternal salvation.18
NOTES:
15 The monastic term “living in the world” here denotes the elder’s life before he became a monk on the Holy Mountain of Athos.
16
The word “Geronda” is the Greek term for an elder or a spiritual father
and can also be used as a term of respect for any elderly monk.
17”The
prayer” refers to the single-phrased Jesus prayer, most
commonly formulated as: “Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on me.
18
From spoken homilies delivered to Elder Ephraim’s brotherhood on
January 6, 1977 and April 5, 1978 at Philotheou Monastery, Mount Athos,
Greece. For remarkably similar narrations, see the account below of
Stephen the Hermit from St. John Klimakos’s Ladder of Divine Ascent, p. 169; the account of Chrysaorios from St. Gregory, Pope of Rome’s Dialogues, p. 161; and St. Tarasios’s own experience from the Life of St, Tarasios, Patriarch of Constantinople, p. 368.
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